Daily Zohar # 1438 – Vayakhel – I am not complaining, I am paying
I wrote and published this article previously on RabbiShimon.com under different title
Life is not a rose garden! Is it? Some may say yes, some may say not. They are both right.
If your nose can sense the pleasant scent and your eyes can see the beauty, you are lucky. Or maybe not… If you want to own that beauty, touch and hold it close to you then prepare yourself to get hurt.
The Zohar Volume 1 chapter 1 talks about the Rose and references Song of Songs 2:1,2 “אֲנִי חֲבַצֶּלֶת הַשָּׁרוֹן, שׁוֹשַׁנַּת הָעֲמָקִים”, “I am a rose of Sharon, a lily of the valleys.” “כְּשׁוֹשַׁנָּה בֵּין הַחוֹחִים, כֵּן רַעְיָתִי בֵּין הַבָּנוֹת” “As the Lily amongst the thorns”. Rabbi Chizkiyah discusses this and says that as the Rose is White and Red, so is the community of Israel. The Malchut, has Merci (white) and Judgment (red).
The Zohar explains that when the Torah refers to the nation, it means the mix multitude, (ערב־רב). When the nation came to Aharon (Exodus 32:1, in the previous Parasha) it is said “וַיִּקָּהֵל הָעָם עַל-אַהֲרֹן, וַיֹּאמְרוּ אֵלָיו קוּם עֲשֵׂה-לָנוּ אֱלֹהִים אֲשֶׁר יֵלְכוּ לְפָנֵינוּ”, “the people gathered themselves together unto Aaron, and said unto him: \’Up, make us a god who shall go before us;”. That was the beginning of the sin of the Golden Calf.
Three chapters later, in the beginning of the Parasha (Exodus 35:1) the Torah uses the same word to begin the process of cleansing. “וַיַּקְהֵל” has the same letters and the same numerical value of 151, which is equal to “מקוה”,”Mikveh”, the ritual pool for spiritual cleansing. We live in a paradoxical world, where good and bad coexist at the same time. “ויקהל” is used for drawing the highest negativity of idol worshipping and the desire for the self and also for the power of the Shabbat. The Mitzvah (precept) of Shabbat is in the second verse, following the gathering the congregation of Israel by Moses.
Why did this great sin happen? Could it have been avoided? We’d like to think “Yes, of course”.
How could they be so close to the Light, see miracles on a daily basis and yet turn to idols? Also how come Aharon helped them build it and make the event as a “holiday for G-d”? (Exodus 32:5).
The Israelites go through the cycle of good and bad. Every time they got close to a big revelation of light, a sin took place. It is like you can’t get closer to the light without having blood in your hand. This Rose (Malchut) draws a lot of blood from us.
After Moshe came down the mountain and saw the nation with the Golden Calf, he destroyed it by burning it to dust which he spread over the water and gave to the Israelites to drink (Exodus 32:20). He transformed the negativity into positivity for those that didn’t participate in the sin.
In 32:26-29 he tells the Levites to go through the camp and kill their brothers, friends and relatives and then they would get blessings.
All the sacrifices done by the priests involved slaughtering and blood. When blood spills, it releases the soul that was in the blood. “כִּי הַדָּם, הוּא הַנָּפֶשׁ” (Deuteronomy 12:20-29). This is what creates a connection to the light. The blood when it circulates through the body, holds the soul and keeps us alive. This is at the level of Malchut. Blood has the numerical value of 44 (12+32) and with the Kolel (adding 1 for the whole) is 45, אדם, Adam, man. Also the same as the gematria value for the name of G-d that represents Zeir Anpin, יוד-הא-ואו-הא, the light.
When the nation made the Golden Calf, G-d told Moses to leave since they were sinning. Why didn’t G-d tell Moses to go just before they fell into the negativity? Didn’t God know it?
From this, we understand that there is a process that we must follow to reach the ultimate revelation of light.
Suffering is part of it. The three major sins in the history of the world are the Sin of Adam and Eve that they couldn’t wait six hours to Shabbat. Then here the nation couldn’t wait another six hours for Moses to come down the mountain and the third one is the sin of the 12 spies, which to my humble opinion, if six of them were to tell the truth about the land, the terrible results of 40 years in the desert and death of the whole generation that came out of Egypt could have been avoided.
It is all related to the sixth day of creation and it echoes through the generations to our times (the sixth millennium).
The three sixes (666) that is related to the sins are also related to the final redemption. In the DivineCalendar book (http://DivineCalendar.com), Ezra (Jeff) Meiliken reveals to us the deeper secrets of the number 666 and its connection to the final redemption.
Remember that before we are able to enjoy our house, we need to own it. For that we need to pay the full payment. Only then we can sit and relax.
On every pain you go through in life, on every tear you shed, open your heart to G-d and say “I am not complaining, I am paying”….